This was written by Shawna Forde for a German publication (Tabor Magazine).

When you say goodbye, you leave a piece of your own personal history, there is a sense of permanency. As long shadows grow before my eyes, as I quietly contemplate my own goodbye, my mark on the world I may leave, and if I left here tomorrow would you still remember me?

We all come to bridges we must cross, even burn down, then leave behind with the memory of smoke and that our eyes were burning.

In restless dreams we walk alone, we are born owning many qualities, most we do not know we posses until we travel on our own journey. All journeys have beginnings and within beginnings enlies endings.

What kind of end depends on what kind of run God gives us.

As a condemned woman to be executed in America, a goodbye is deeply personal. Germany has blessed me, by allowing me to share with you, my soul.

Throughout our life we close many doors, doors to friendships, family, relationships, jobs, freedom, and environment. Some we love deeply. Myself, I may have to say goodbye to love of life.

Yard report 8/31/20

 why is women's death row forced to live under constant harassment and forced to house on a discipline yard when all 3 are model inmates, myself I'm a super model inmate and have been for 9yrs.

women on Arizona death row are subjected to more punishment and harassment on a daily basis, due to housing, because of our sentence not behavior, the men do not house with other G.P inmates and are not forced on a discipline yard, why are the women? when there are other options to house us, or recognize us as a different status and allow us more privileges to match our behavior. I now get less time out then in solitary and am treated the same as people with extremely high points

my points are 18, discipline points 0

a average inmate on this yard due to fighting, stealing, etc, points 65 and above, dicapline 8 to 10

so you get what I'm up against.

Here is my typical week, so you understand why I'm feeling rather salty.

***so for 3 days now we've been on lockdown, no showers, nothing, because a inmate hit a officer who was harassing her, the entire yard was punished,

we are only given 2 hrs a day, 6 days a week to call family/ friends
5:30am to 7:15am. 3 days and 8:00am to 10:00am 3 days
no afternoons, no evening.*** ( like the last ten years so you could talk to those that work etc). they took that away. ". because they can"
so we also do not get visits anymore, and weekends are important to us,
BLANKET PUNISHMENT is now their brilliant idea, ** bare in mind that many SMI people are also here and have no capability to follow at times basic rules** they keep us in room that all summer were 100+ and no windows that open for air. BECAUSE THEY SEALED THEM SHUT!
**22 hrs a day in cell time.** they have no programs, training, nothing, they even took away the once mandated SMI classes! " yeah "

so with male officers we are forced to get naked and bath in our rooms,
and they wonder why so many are compromised ?

any of you see a problem with this, please call perryville/Lumley and complain
623-853-0304 ask for DW ON LUMLEY.